206: Sometimes/one step...

Sometimes

one step

is the largest distance

you’ll ever have to cover

and instead of taking that one step forward

you’ll take 1,000 steps

in any other direction

I think of Neil Armstrong

and think of the immensity

of his most most famous step, and

I wonder if I could have done it.

I wonder if I could have stepped

that great of a step.

I think about courage, and

I’m not always certain what it is,

but I know when I am afraid, and

there are things in my life I am afraid to

step towards because they

represent what I want,

but I know as I draw closer

All of those dreams will

fade one by one and all I will be left with is

the empty reality of what I need

and not what I want,

and it feels like that isn’t enough

it is enough, but it never feels like enough

But I don’t know if I want to take a step towards you

For, will you be enough?

I don’t know!

And it has scared me enough that I don’t

want to take even a single step to find out.

We all want to be greater

than our mere selves.

We dream further than the stars

these vast distances

But it is our fear

(my fear, your fear, our fears)

of taking these small insignificant

steps that condemn us to our

life of status quo here on

our safe little earth

And that is why a single step

on some not-so-distant sphere

is greater than perhaps any step

any of us have ever taken,

and I just want to say:

                  “Thanks Neil.”

But I’m still not taking that step,

at least, not yet.

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